It's been two months since her passing, and it has gotten a little easier, but not much. Every once in a while I will backslide and have a few bad minutes, but then it gets better and I go on. I still have small fits of anger where I just want to scream at the top of my lungs what happened and I deserve everything that you can give me, but then reality sets in and I'm not the only one that this has ever happened to. Selfishness is a hard thing to beat, epecially when it is coupled with anger; but thanks to Dan and the others, I have the best help there is.
June started school so I have something to keep myself focused on. We went out shopping for school clothes for her on Saturday and ate at CiCi's, a pizza buffet place. We saw one of Allison's flyers on the wall and thanked the manager for letting us put it there. The next thing I knew we were given a few free buffet cards and their marketing manager's contact information. They said that CiCi's has "Benefit Days", where 10% of the receipts turned in would go toward the fund. We might take them up, we might not. There would probably be a lot of work involved, and I don't know if I could handle it. With Karen, Diana, Sheri, and Dan taking care of the event at church, it helps to not be directly invloved and to know that they, and everyone else around, would do anything to help us.